New Semester - Coping up..
Espana goes by, winter break was all past..
up and forthcoming..New Sem…
And with new sem, came new timetable, new subject, new responsibilities, new experience….but what I’m afraid of most…is new chance..
Some people see chances as something positive, but if i did learnt something in my philosophy class last sem, then it is the Ancient Greek school of think proverbs: "We can give 2 statement about everything"
and so does for chances….while theres always chances to win, theres also exist chances to lose, chances to success and to fail, chances to be happy, chances to despair, chances to be loved, and even chances to be left…..
So how do I cope up with all this chances. Of course people would like only the "good" chance, but no one can avoid the "bad" one..
The very first thing that hit me on the forthcoming sem is whether I’d get the same damn lecturer for my path phys, and while I uttered all my anger and dislike towards her, the one thing that I couldnt deny is that actually Im getting tired of her..not that Im tired of her firing up my ass, but mostly because I fail to keep up with her expectation..and so, each week last sem were chances for me to fail up to her…and again and again and again..
Ironically, I told everybody that in order to survive here, one thing u need is not to keep expectation…but among all people, I believe Im one of those who think that it is absolute insanity…
If its true that we were born to be doctors, then this ability to expect and the passion of expectation is already instilled in each and every one of us..doctors everyday expect their patients to walk out from the hospital feeling better, healing tremendously..we expect to find cure for illness, we expect to be able to tell our patients that everything gonna be allright…
and in the midst of all this, no one can deny the hurtfull truth that we cant cope up with this expectations, especially when we fail to keep up with it…
Clock tickings, and Im counting my moments for those new chances to meet me, and all the while, Im trembling deep down, wondering whether I can cope…
