dis is my foot..and it had walked a long way..
This is a plantography of my foot. It indicates that I had a flat-foot deformity of the 2nd degree.
Errm…well, the above picture and quotes pretty much said it all. I was "experimented" during the hygiene class. And thus, again, for the hundreth of times, I was told I’m not "normal" 
And as for my abnormality, it went a long way with that..
This foot had taken me far..as far as I remember, both metrically (where it is measured by meters) and socio-psychologically (where no metric unit exist).
and sometimes I’d hit the wrong and hard way…where the journey was hurtful..and you fall again and again. The only thing that get us going right then, was that there’s always someone who walk together with us in that journey. The fact that we never alone, that somebody will pull us (or push as it’s easier to be done with a 150kg person) is the one that fill me up with a glucose-like-substance, keep me moving forward instead of surrender.
Especially when you got such foot deformities, you knew you can never walk or stand far. You know that you always need someone by your side to help you stand and walk. You accept, that its the fact of the world,that you need his mercy.
maybe that’s why God made good friends..so abnormal people like me can walk like other people..
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eventually,this foot can also walk through that way, the way which is hurtful not only to you, but also to people around you. U know, that kind of path where not only you will fall, but also people next to you…and I might not realise that..because I might feel it is kind of normal you know.Because I had fall and fall again, I get used to the hurt..and when people around me get hurt as well, I could never understand what so painful about it.I thought they already numbed like me..
and of course, I’m pretty much wrong from the start. People are different. While people like me got over the hypersensitivity reaction (where my coagulating factor seem increase to block any hemorrhage) other people are still….normal. They can get hurt. They feel pain. And they, can get angry..
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when I had to choose either to walk alone with this bad foot, or to always hail for someone’s help..definitely, I’d choose the 2nd option…
so, I hope this foot can walk me to the pathway of "apology and forgiveness". Eventually I realised that I had travelled the wrong way , eventhough it is near. I mean, a bad road can always be just downstairs. I hope this foot will just stick to my room, or at least around here..not more than that. I hope this foot can keep a distance away from hurting other people..
and I hope this foot can again walk alongside with other feets out there….I never dare to walk alone..
so forgive me will ya’? the foot never meant to walk that way….
thanks..
April 5th, 2006 at 3:57 pm
sometimes we don’t aware about surrounding people that care about us and that’s why we feel alone.
sometimes we feel alone bcoz no one’s there when we really need someone.
sometimes we have to adjust ourselves to other people bcoz they won’t adjust themselves to dynamically changing life circumstances.(may be they forget that they are not the only living creature in this planet,so forgive them)
some people are so self-centred that they only think about why people do terrible things to them without thinking what they have done to other’s life.
Confucius said “don’t do things that u don’t want to be done to you”.
but did he promise u that people won’t do things that u don’t do to them?
we cannot ask people to follow our way.everybody has rights to choose. and eachtime we have to decide whether it is for our own sake or others.