My side of the story..
I suppose we all knew the time when we’re told to "Watch out" for something
"watch out about what you said" - or you’ll never get laid
"watch out about what you eat, it goes straight down your ass" - hooky - pooky, I let all of it pass
"think about what you talk" - say anything, I’ll even eat a chalk
I suppose it let all us - or maybe it just me - to become "A control freak"So nowadays, most of the time when I face people - let alone talk to them - my head turn into a 512Mhz processor with dual core, processing about the info & possibilities "should I say this? is this proper? am I gonna say the wrong things?" while all the time, still sending a signal to my tongue and bucco-facial muscle to elicit the act of conversation. Talk about multitasking here…
It turn out ..sometimes I get pretty tired of watching out for other people feelings. Or at some point, about hiding my own feeling. I might didnt like something, but for God sake, since everyone else enjoy it, and I rather to be a pacifist, I continue to enjoy the whole thing..and sometimes people blaming us for something -if not everything-and then the world turn out black and dark for us.
Its not easy nowadays to let people hear our part of the story. Sometimes it burden me so much I felt like exploding, but anyway I keep a small black diary under my pillow where I wrote all my bad feelings there..Kidding la…
BUt really, its nice to have someone to listen to my part of the story
October 2nd, 2006 at 6:26 pm
This ‘please sign in to post a comment’ thing is really driving me nuts. It gives me Error 404 all the time that I’ll have to log in on another page, then open a new page to go to your blog and! and! and! then the taskbar’s all full. Pfft.
Anyway.
Although “shut up!” (the ‘cool shut up’ and not the ‘rude shut up’ fyi) is now officially my most used phrase, I can’t seem to shut myself up. My lingual + buccal + facial muscles seem to work involuntarily. How ugly and scary is that.
Anyway.
You’ve got to find the right ears to have someone to listen to your story and the right or should I say similar? perspective of mind to get sensible feedbacks otherwise the conversation would turn out to be such a bore or an unintended boxing match.
October 3rd, 2006 at 6:19 am
heh..thanx for the idea..I’ll try to figre out who got the same 512Mhz processor like me..
so..what happen when a control freak meet another control freak??
they wont freak out.,..bcoz they are such a control freak, even to let themself freak out
(freak count = 5..uh..6)
October 4th, 2006 at 3:54 am
how freaky.
hehehe!
October 8th, 2006 at 3:09 am
im still waiting for that ‘cikgu surgery hensem’ post!