.:a sUdDeN sLiP:.

It has been some time since I put on new post..way too long..even before haneem set up her AWOLing status…

Thing is..I have a lot of time..way too much, just that I dont spend it wisely. No, I dont sleep on that much, on the contrary, I sleep around 3-4a.m, but while not doing anything constructively, I mainly spent it on staring on the blank ceiling, or to my laptop screen..

To those watching Grey’s u know how different people react to stress in different ways. Dr Yang went jog, Izzie bakes muffins (and a lot of them), Addison went for a drink, Dr Burke went camping, Maradeth got herself a dog, while George, he turned to be someone else. And there’s Resse in Malcolm in the Middle, who face the stressful situation by switching his brain off. And there’s this one character in Chinese movie who face her stress by cleaning up toilet until it shines..

The point is…people tend to be reserved when facing stressful situations. Apart from the increasing "stress hormone" , we try so hard not to express it in front of others. We find different ways (and it can be ugly sometimes) just to direct our mind off. Sometimes it can be ususal thing, mostly it is usual to others, but not to us. In Malay, you call it "buang tebiat" . I mean, someone who rarely even whistle, one day he ends up picking the microphone and karaoeking the whole night, that should indicate something wrong..

Which goes to my next point..so, why do people act out of their habitual boundary when they face stressful situations? some might said they want to direct their energy to something constructive, but hey, some people tend to doze off for hours when they are sad, some people even consume a large packet of M&M’s just to numb their pain..

For all my experience worth, I found out that mostly, people do so as a way to attract attention from others, but in an indirect way. They missed that someone would lean beside them, and asked whats wrong. They missed the pat in the shoulder, and the whisper saying thats everything gonna be ok. They missed that pair of ears and eyes which listen and glare without judgement.

So why cant all these people just go to someone, and said "I have a problem, and I’d like you to listen" . Wont happen..in our orthodoxical point of view, it represent weakness and lack of strength to be beaten down by problem. It indicate that we are fragile to be open, and the most harsh word can be labelled down to this people as "loser"…I know some of you will react to this statement by saying "no…we’re always hear to listen"…but back off!!!I lived too many years to see that the truth is always paradoxical…

And so, while we’re not screaming out loud, we are actually scream for help from within. or maybe not for help…maybe we scream just for someone to be there….

p/s: I cook when I’m in bad mood, and I started to dance when im in a very very bad mood…and when it getting worse, I’m just gonna be….normal

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