U still dont get it didn’t u?
"VEILED HEART"
A quick reminder to reader :
For the consecutive times, this post, which I intended intimately to keep to myself, (although I have written it few hours ago) spurs out from the friendster database to be published here.
As u scroll this post downward, keep in mind please that this is MY BLOG,which automatically make it a shrine for me to express myself out. So really if u dont like the sound of this, u better stop reading now, and go do whatever it is that you want to do…
ok..warning ended here…now its time for me to rantle and ramble..
Dear XXX (attn: not a porn star),
I cant help myself but get annoyed when I understand that although we did have our "little talk", you still failed to see the point of the whole thing and where this thing would be going.
People talk. U have to lived with that. If u dont want people to talk about u, go contemplate yourself somewhere deep in the jungle, or cave for that matters. SO, bear in mind that we actually live in a community, who loves to talk, and which is not that weird giving the fact that "U did the same thing too"..
However, most importanly is WHY PEOPLE TALK ABOUT U (and then somehow associated it with me). In malay phrase "kalo takde angin, masakan pokok bergoyang" - which is not 100% accurate since somebody can always shake the tree. OK, back to my point, ..people dont JUST talk. They talk when they have something to talk about. Apparently, sometimes you failed to see that the reason people talk perhaps comes from your own cause. OK, I know you will deny this fact - but that is so typical of u…so I’d live along with that.
To my next point then, is WHAT WE DO WHEN PEOPLE TALK. We know we cant stop people from talking. Its like impossible (though u can always stitch their mouth up with one of those cat-gut winded interrupted stitch u learn in surgery). But when people talk, u can choose to believe, and pick sides…or u can choose not to believe, and investigate first, and then contemplate the cause n meaning of why people talk. Then whenever u take sides, pick ur sides carefully, cause you might hurt someone …oops…rephrase that ..u already hurt someone..
See?? the point is not really about people talking. What hurts more is to know THAT YOU BLINDLY TRUST THEM AND DISTRUST ME. I was your friend for God-sake you jackass, so to put me into such inferior level as a distrust people is actually kinda big mess…
Which goes to my next point that I HAVEN’T HEARD A SINGLE WORD OF APOLOGY COMING OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH for doing that. Why the hell that u have such a God-complex that u are too egoistic to apologize for what u have done?? If u hold true to your word that "u’re going to take responsibility for every action that u made"..then, this is one of it!! U hurt me, be responsible for that !! I couldnt help the fact that "u heard things from people and thats why I come to believe it"…for God-sake , stop pointing the errors to everybody else except from yourself. You did a mistake too by "NOT COMING TO ME AND ASKED WHAT THE HECK IS REALLY GOING ON"…..so, figure that out!!
Its not about everybody else….its not even about our community that bothers me. I lived in this community longer than u, and I co-exist with it perfectly. So far, it had been one of the perfect community I had ever lived with.I had no grudge towards other people whatsoever. So, yeah, the problem is between us!! so lets not involve anybody else in this mess, ok??
Now, do something about this…quoting from u (which I have translated ) " sitting there with u’r as doing nothing as if u are not even responsible for what happened, and morever without the littlest bit of guiltness"..hey, take that back to u, since in my opinion, you are the one who is doing so….maybe not to everybody else, but sufficiently for me..
And for my last point, if there’s anything, or anyone that need to be saved here….I figure, it is not the community, or other people, or whoever…..YOU ARE THE ONE WHO NEED TO BE SAVED…..
So…save your ass out from this mess, and do it yourself…
I rarely get mad at people, but for what u did, I bet my ass out I’m so mad at you right now..
Period.
