Archive for March, 2007

I feel time slipped past me

Tuesday, March 6th, 2007

I lost sense of time..
I lost it since Sunday noon…
I dont know what time is it now..I dont know at what time I should get up
I felt my dinner like my lunch

I couldnt grasp the time …
I didnt aware its my turn to raskaz in the russian class…
I dont know its evening and I need to take a bath

I felt its like minutes, until someone knocked at the door when I had sat almost for 2 hours in the toilet

I did my Subuh prayer two times this morning, coz I lost my sense of time

actually,I lost all my senses already…

grasp me out please..

A bitter song..

Saturday, March 3rd, 2007

Its snowing outside…its gleamy, its dark, its cold..just like the inside

All I need is a bitter song
To make me better
Much better
All I need to write is a bitter song
To make me better
Much better

I soak myself a Chamomile meadow teabag, forcing myself to take a sip, trying to believe that the calming effect is said would do me some good..

It found me to hold me
But I don’t like it at all
Won’t feed it,
Won’t grow it
It’s folded in my stomach;
It’s not fair,
I found love;
It made me say that.
Get back,
You’ll never see daylight;
If I’m not strong it just might.

I started counting day..counting how much I have survived fighting this battle..and counting how much more days do I have to fight…

All I need is a bitter song
To make me better
Much better
All I need to write is a bitter song
To make me better
I feel better
I feel better

In the end, I feel I’m losing…better yet, I felt defeated..
but then again, what the hell…

oh…what the hell…

sIX wEiRDo

Saturday, March 3rd, 2007

Neemo said I’ve been tagged.
I have been tagged to list down 6 weird things about myself.
that doesnt seem difficult enough, I’ve been a weirdo all my life :)

1. I dont answer tags…but I do respond to them, and I beg myself to differ between those two

2. I’m a right-handed person for everything else, except when using a scissor

3. Can express himself in a 1001 ways around, using whateve-the-hell it is out there, and understand the fact that sometimes people dont get him, since the comparison look so distant….and then hate himself for doing that. Next day, the cycle repeats

4. Very good in tech junkies and electronic stuff … and yet, have the tendencies to damage them unintentionally.

5. Most comforting place he found in this hostel : the toilet

6. Have a habit to challenge himself up for nonsense thingeys. (e,g surviving the winter without a comforter / duvet on my bed, or not going to the same toilet for 2 times consecutively)

haah!! how bout that :)

sYmPToMatiQue…

Saturday, March 3rd, 2007

I cant get un-annoyed by the fact that people always observing what u did and keep telling us how to do this and that without even thinking of putting themselves in our shoes..

I mean, of course, when u seem tired in the morning, people tell u to go to bed early and so on, and start lecturing the benefits of good night sleep, and how skipping it would not only make u obese, but also increase your risk of conceiving a cardiovascular disease, hormonal imbalance and what not….

Little did anybody really interested in why the person of interest had a lack of ability to sleep peacefully at night. Nobody cares enough to reach deep down there to know the ethiology…

Have we doctors tend to treat patient by simply alleviating the syndrome?? what about the cause?

Sometimes, a little talk to a heartbroken patient, a little touch to someone who had a nervous breakdown, might have a powerful effect compared to a bottle of Prozac..

btw, does anyone know where I can get Prozac without a prescription??

heck-tic life..

Saturday, March 3rd, 2007

I’m sorry for u all out there, who waited eagerly to read my latest post, and had been disappointed by my uneagerness to tell the whole world what I do first thing in the morning, do I brush my teeth first? or do I go to the toilet first? wrong…baca doa bangun tido la wei

Ok, now I’m sorry for pretending like anybody out there really give a heck how’s my life today..A small group of friend maybe, but I dont think anybody else would have been interested to know that I found a strange-looking dog poo today by the roadside..

Life’s been hectice this few recent  weeks.I hope this will pass soon….

ll Sogno Italiano - Part 4 : MILANO

Thursday, March 1st, 2007

The Trenitalia Intercity train made it stop at the Milan Centrale, the 3rd biggest Railway Station in Europe. That title doesnt judge them fairly, since although the biggest is the Rome Termini, you would be astonished about just how huge the Milano Centrale. And unlike the relatively calmer Rome, here its full of energy.
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Its the city life, an urban-metropolitan with chic peole running around carrying their leather case with Paco Rabbane perfume filled the air. I mean, u know that Milan is the World’s  Fashion City, and u could be expected to be welcomed by a huge billboard advertising the new Dolce Gabbana collection.

Our hostel is located around 10 minutes from Duomo, the city centre.
The train journey earlier had sucked my stamina a bit, and I really
love to just lay on the bed after we reached our hostel. But then I
remember watching the Solidas (sale) sign lining up the shops along the
way here..and suddenly i felt revitalised :)
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The Il Duomo Cathedral. 3rd largest cathedral in  the world

I would have to admit my mistake by spending only 2 days in this heaven. The fashion spree aside, what people dont know is that Milan have the 3rd largest Catholic Cathedral, the Il Duomo. While its not as large as the La Sagrada Familia of BArcelona, its nonetheless is still charming. Poor us though, cause at the time of our visit, the facade was closed for construction.

It is here too, lay the most important Christian artwork (or perhaps its the other way around?/) the legendary "The Last Supper" by Leonardo Da Vinci. I swear to God I never knew it was located in Milan !! I thought it must be somewhere in Louvre, or the Vatican..but its here!!!! But my soaring hope diminishes as soon as I learnt that to gain entry, we need to make an online reservation for like….2 weeks before??? Duh, I was still struggling with blackwidow at that time….

OK, enough church,arts, and castles ! LEts go shopping-hopping !! Actually its  more like…salivating beside the display case wishing I would have enough cash to spent on one of those Zegna sweater. (of course, without being killed by  my dad if I did buy it)
Dsc00154 Galleria Vittorio Emmanuale ..Urban legend has it said that all hollywood stars MUST own a lingerie/underwear here to stay atop of the chart..do u believe in that crap??

The fashion district in central milan is located in what they called the "Il Quatro de’ Or
or the Golden Quarter. It composed of the breathtaking Galleria Vittorio Emmanuale, and several other main streets (notes : several others :) I knew I couldnt afford it, but I do keep enough to buy my mom and dad a generous gift from one of those designer stores item. And it really feel pretty good (if not gayish) walking around the city carrying a paper bag printed "SISLEY" without the "sale" sign imprinted on it :)

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SHOPPING !! SHOPPING!!
And if u thought I am the one who burnt up all my money on clothing and all that,,u’re totally wrong. It ended up in a way that while I walked out of ZARA carrying my 70% off winter coat, Raja actually spent enough to get himself three huges paper bag of Zara items!!! and lets not start with the Krohner and the hip hop district, he must understand now why I undermine his silly Eminem jeans :) and it relieved me to see him changing from a Fasiona-Non-Grata to the "jock next door" (whatever dat means)

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KAKA What???

And there’s the San Siro Stadium. I’m not that interested in AC Milan, since I know at best, Kaka. That morning was so misty and vision level decreased so much that we ended up in some horse stable / polo field insted of the San Siro stadium!! Apparently, here it is called by its real name ..The Stadio Giuseppe Meazza..
that’s why we cant find it in our map :)
Its huge..allright, though SAntiano Barneabau is obviosly larger…but the guided tour sucks big time!!

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On our last night in Milan, we had our last Italian dinner in Spizco, the Italian answer for overgrowth of American disgusting McDonalds, tainting the Italian gastronomy. A bite of pizza, a sip of cola, a crowd of beautiful people around..I wished time would just stop, and I didnt have to go back to Moscow tomorrow…we strolled down the Milan main streets for hours, before heading back to our hostel with total silence (it must be that we’re so tired, or maybe someone was recounting how much Euro he left with, as with me, it was due to my regret that I couldnt fit into so many affordable n beautiful clothes I tried on earlier. Next year, I’ll be coming back with a new me-size….uuh..I had this thought last two year in Paris it seems…shit :P

The next day, before leaving the Malpensa airport into Aeroflot..before being dragged back to the harsh reality of Russian life, I sniffed up my last air of Milan…

I swear I could still smell the Giorgio Armani perfumes ………